can't believe it

I can't believe i neglected my blog for sooo long!! sure, i tried updating from my smartphone but it wouldn't cooperate!  :/
Christmas has already passed and it sure was a celebration unlike the previous years! Thank much to G and YY for inviting me out! else, i would have solo-ed at home..   -.-
As I learnt recently, drastic times calls drastic measure and it works!!! haha, nothing like something shocking to convince the other person, yes?? ;D
It's already less than a week to a new year!! I hope that the new year will see an improvement in my health, and me being able to spend more time with my loved ones!  <3

peace....attaining in process

after some wise words, comforting and a sound scolding received from all the darling ppl around me, I finally found it in me to continue on again. Maybe I'm was being as dramatic and over reacting as usual....but honestly, i needed the help since getting back on your feet by myself was getting harder..
trying to be at peace by not fretting over problems not my own...and to just let go of what i can't change. one step at a time SY, one step at a time   :)

confusion

honestly, the transition from child to teenager, teenager to young adult was and is never easy for me. I'm filled with confusion, uncertainty, fear but also excitement, eagerness that I found myself getting split personalities. 1 is the cold, rational and unfeeling me. the other is the emotional and over active me. But either way I get tired. Tired of trying hard, tired of finding a place for myself in this big big world, tired of sugarcoating my words in fear of getting scolded, tired of being leaned on when they need help the most but thoughtlessly thrown away when help is no longer needed.
I smile and laugh, be hyper and immerse myself in many activities to stay on living, to fill the emptiness within me by fulfilling my curiosity. But I wonder how many realize that I'm slowly getting tired of trying too hard. I don't even know why I try so hard when I know I should just take it slow. Is it because I'm still trying to make up for lost time? Or is it because of some other reason I have yet to fathom? a small voice inside me constantly whispers to me "quick quick quick". but for what?
I think i'm getting too emotional these days. often I find myself in bed wide awake, unthinking and I either cry because I feel thankful for the wonderful people and with the love i'm surrounded by....or cry for the loss of the past and what can never be right again. I hate feeling so pathetic, so weak. But i'm also scared to lean against someone else becoz i'm scared they will push me away or break themselves. After all, we may all look fine...but we each have our own inner demons to face.
sigh, i should stop this. signing out now!

HI Club OC

today was HI Club's Opening Ceremony!! I got so excited being able to see all my friends and even some of my juniors joining the cca that I was high all night!! Even though I am a bit sad at not being able to be an instructor, I feel that its better this way because I have too many commitments. Leave the teaching to those who have more passion and time for it! I will help others enjoy what they learn instead.   :)
I was finally able to overcome the 'barrier' within me and talk to J in a...normal-me manner. I do not wish for whatever rumours there may be to ruin a possible friendship. In this, I hope to mature a bit more. And in time, I believe I will.

On a side note, I'm feeling a little nervouse about tomorrow! anticipation, uncertainty, and certainly....courage.

a brand new month

aah~ how time flies!! It's alread November 2011 and it felt like it was only yesterday when i came back from my chengdu trip in march!
Had 2 hrs of sch today(yay~ for cancelled classes!  XD) and attended an talk about the ugly sides of substance addiction. It was really useful and it also taught me that its not only substances that can be abused but processes and certain behaviours too. scary....but certainly informative. it has cured all notion of me wanting to try it out just for curiosity sake.  :P
our school had the semester-ly blood donation drive!! and of coz, i went again. it still surprises me how hot my blood feels when its getting drawn out.  :O    i wonder how long later then will it feel cold? I hope that this donation of mine can save lives that can otherwise have been saved.  :)
hung out around sch before meeting with a friend to have dinner tgt! too bad he was sick so we just parted ways on our way to my btt at bukit timah driving centre.  :(  good news is, i got a 50/50!! total pass woohoo~!!!!!!!!!! XD

time to kill

As I had some time to kill after my jap class until my vocals started, I ended up walking around kino and the basement food floor and had a blast! not only did I get to see cute accessories at kino (and getting inspired to make my own book covers if only I can get the stupid sewing machine to work!!), I 'discovered' some new pastry shops at the basement floor. OK, they're not that new but it's still new to me coz I haven't been there since like, forever!

Walking around looking at all the yummy-licious goodies, I had to restrict myself to getting an original ice cheesecake and cats tongues biscuits from Flor. reason for buying from there? coz the line was long and I was just curious (as usual).  =P   no regrets there, it was delicious!! the fine ground almonds in the biscuits could be tasted without it feeling too pastey and the cheesecake not only did it look so cute in a cupcake cup, it was really easy to eat either straight or with a spoon! the richness of the cheese without being too heavy, and biscuit base that wasn't too tough, i loved it! definitely gonna go back there to try the other flavours like mango green tea yuzu etc.   =D

precious simple moments

as I moved house, keeping in touch with JY has gotten easier and I'm happy at being able to see her and meet up again. And although we're living further apart now, G darling, I always believe that somehow, we will never lose touch with one another.
Being comfortable with one another to the point that silence isn't awkward but rather comfortable, it's really to my precious precious people that I feel that way. So peaceful...and it strengthens me to know that I've got true friends who will stand by me when I need it. I feel so blessed for having all the wonderful people in my life.  :)

NPS outing!

we had our outing today! lunch, Real Steel and dinner with lots of shopping in between! R couldn't come coz of a tummy ache, L and J were just in time for the movie! The movie was really enjoyable and I loved the father-son bonding that I nearly cried. Hmm....emotional much? but I loved it! especially atom!!! haha, like how it hints of atom having its own intelligence and well, it was through atom that father and son got tgt!
After much walking around at Plaza Sing, we had dinner at Kura! Had red miso ramen, i liked how the different ingredients complemented one another without being too overpowering. I would prefer my egg to be a bit more cooked though.   >.<
we went crazy in spotlight and laughed and squealed over everything pretty! I got the knitting needles I wanted to and when I went down, I followed my heart and bought another 2 baking books. haha! I Love baking!!!! lastly, discovered a nail art supplies shop, soooo gonna frequent there now. sad that the night is over and we couldn't go timbre, but hey, there's always another chance!   :D

new school semester

I've never felt so happy that school starts again until now!! Maybe it's because of the difference between the past and now. Now, I have lots of friends I look forward to seeing(and feels the say way back), I feel excited of learning new things again, I feel excited of all the activities coming up with a new semester! Aah~ I just love it right now!!   XDXDXD

NPStrings Annual Family Concert

After tons of gruelling practices and stressing over it for weeks, the time to show the results of our hard work came! I am SO PROUD of my fellow nps members for giving it their all and not complaining despite the gruelling practices.
Honestly, I was afraid that I will not be able to play at all because I had the least practices(due to other commitments and recent illness) but my worries were for naught(mostly!) Maybe because of the additional pressure of having to lead the freshies, sitting at the front row for the first time and/or because important people of mine have been invited, I was able to play calmly and smoothly. Immensely glad that they all enjoyed the performances we gave. Hip Hip Hooray!
I love music, it runs in my veins. I may not be able to be a fulltime musician, but in my own ways, I am no less than they are.
P.S.
On a side note, wearing heels and walking great distances the whole of today has left me with blisters and ripped skins....  pain!!  ;_;
P.P.S
Met someone I would rather not even rmbr of today..  :(
P.P.P.S
I hope that someday(hopefully soon), I will be cared for more than I do him.  :)
P.P.P.P.S
goodnight world! i'm off to bed now as I've got work tmrw.  :P     lol, ok. i'm just being plain silly

camps, camps and more training sessions

ZERO HOUR CAMP...
...where we learnt to reflect on the day's actions at the stroke of midnight. late song signing practices till late and early wake up calls. zombie!!!!!!!! got hurt by a fellow group mate when she purposelly pointed out my fault in front of the whole group instead of telling me face to face. I found that very sneaky of her. And she still thinks that I will never understand her just because I'm younger! piss off, i really hate prejudices and such...
but camps overall was fun wif the bonding and practices. led me to wonder about a few stuffs though...
MUSIC CAMP...
...where we trained for our upcoming concert like crazy. Many ups and downs but I was sad to have missed out 1 1/2 day of camp coz I had jap class, vocal class and had to pack to move my house. last night of staying at my highgate condo....i felt kinda sad..
more practices and work!! I realized that I really need fresh air in order to 'survive'...

and on a little side note, I found that I'm the type that will be constantly quite insecure about herself. lol. why am i so strong for some and so weak for others? can balance nicely or not? lol

shopping spreeee

hahaha, I am so LUCKY to have WORKED this week else I would have been TOTALLY BROKE!!! well, i'm still totally broke.  :P
Went out with WL to Bugis for shopping!! Had lunch at shokudo, the beef with spicy soup udon was delicious so was the yuzu iced tea and waffle wif butter and honey~    XD    I'm really starting to like that place coz they got the most excellent waffles and yuzu!!
After that, we, more like only me, proceeded to shop for jeans (3 for $99, I didn't knoe jeans could be so ex!!!  @.@) then after getting them altered to my leg length, went to Bugis Street for more shopping! Several factors made me DESPERATE to own at least 1 feminie clothing....so I went all out at bought 3 dresses, 1 wedge/sandal and 1 blouse!!  XD  I know, I know, I probabaly(i did!) burn a hole in my wallet... but did i stop? no!!
went to iluma for high tea and Cheeky Chocolates. the Chocolate vienn...arie?? wasn't so good coz they didn't balance the heavy and light... it was heavy wif chocolate cream, peanut butter and melted chocolate so I didn't enjoy it much..
Afterwards! walked around iluma and ended up buying 2 music CDs from gramaphone. I love secret garden and oldies!!  XD
After that, a light dinner of ToriQs and home! I love today~~ I simply love it!!!   :D:D:D

baking spreee

I've been busy! As usual!! And I was just plain lazy to update my blog in a while.  :P
After getting myself a couple of new recipe books, I was too impatient to start after camp, that I started baking last night and this morning! Even though I had work ystd AND strings practice later this afternoon! All my hyper energy is gone and I'm kinda tired after all the baking. But hey, at least the orange flavoured cupcakes tastes really good!  XD  and it's zesty zing gave me that boost I needed!
And getting back to my previous post, I kinda wimped out about 'confronting my problem'. but I just wanted this small bit of happiness to last before I 'crashed and burned'.... At least by not 'confronting', I was able to find out some..interesting things from a little birdy!  :P

life is like a roller coaster...

...more so nowadays.
And relationships get complicated when there's fear of rejection involved... I don't know what he's thinking at all, does he like me back? And even if he did, will I be able to trust in him and love him back? Or will I doubt him and wonder if he truly loves me all the time?   :(
Should I just wait and see where my feelings go or should I stop this growing feelings of mine? I'm starting to care...and to think that it might be unrequited/unwanted, I feel so sad! so hurt...

this fcuked up world...

I was looking forward to the trip so much because I would be able to bond more with my friends, and hopefully gain somemore 'insights' of the world. What I learnt though, was so much full of pain and heartbreak that I can't help but get out my glass of baileys....
At least good points of the trip was when us 4 girls shopped for our own undergarments for the first time ever...with each other! hahaha! It was a really funny and nice experience. I got to make new friends BS and GX, friends of Fish.  :D
Came back and went straight to music room, I missed everybody~
But everything is still weighing heavily in my mind and heart, I can't relax...  :(

heart warming...and excitement!

I'm the type that needs to blow up once in a way to let off all steam, calm down and become normal again. It's the only way I can continue on without becoming affected too negatively, without holding a grudge onto someone forever. So when I blew up today on fb, a lot of my friends who saw the post sent me smses, msges and msn asking me if what was the matter. Through lots of support and encouragement, I was able to calm down much faster...and thank to a certain someone KTH, I was able to 'solve' my 'dilemma' which I would have normally taken a few days if I was alone. Thank you everyone, you made my heart warm again and it is only through this that I can always stop myself from being completely cynical. I love you guys~!!!

My Malaysia school study trip is finally tmrw!! or more like, this morning!! I can't wait~ I just looooove overseas study trips. It gives me the time and environment needed to reflect on my life and to form conclusions and become a better person. I learn to treasure my families again, I get to learn new things about my friends I've never known before and form new bonds. I hope that the trip will be full of fun and meaningful experiences. and of course, a learning journey!  :P   so cya folks when I come back on the 15th!  :D:D

if my life had a shape...

if my life had a shape...it would be a circle with a line across it. It's because I always try to be fair, to see both sides of the coin, and make the best & most fair decision. I tend to think too much, and end up going round and round. but the line that cuts through the circle is where i take a stand and 'finalize' things.

There's never a right decision, nor a wrong one. Because for some, the result is all that matters, while for others, its the journey that matters the most. I think that both are important. In other not to feel shame when you reach your destination, you need to walk a righteous road. But by insisting on being right and you stray from your path, it's a bit pointless don't you think?

To take into consideration all factors, together with what you believe in and what is important to you and making a decision is what defines me. People think that I'm noble to be self-sacrificing for my family, some think I'm foolish to let myself be tied down, some say I'm half hearted by not taking a side and stands in the middle, but whatever they may think of me, I honestly don't care now. Why? Because I have made my up my mind.

Whether out of neccessity, respect, obedience, symphathy, convenience, my decision has been made and I won't let anyone make me stray from my chosen path. My friends don't understand, but when they don't take an effort to after my explanations, I give up. It's just not meant to be. I move on. Me, callous? Maybe, but if you have a goal in life, you can't let yourself be tied down by every little thing.. I do try to make the important things matter though.

4 Sep
Finally!! I registered for my BTT. The earliest date I could book was November 1st! Apparently, I have to get my license within 6 months... I hope I can pass!! I'm a slow learner after all...   >.<
Plasir D'amour
Went to watch my seniors and friends performing at the Singapore Conference Hall and I was amazed by the performance. It was hard for me to understand all of it as it was said only in chinese but nevertheless, I enjoyed myself a lot wif the human voices accompanied by strings in the background to Mozart's play "Bastien and Bastienna"! How I wish to be able to go for more concerts, plays etc~ it's burning a big hole in my wallet though..  :O

5 Sep
Had my grooming workshop at school today, 4 hrs long. Kept nodding off in the first half as I was too tired! been out almost everyday of the holidays, I'm getting really tired... But at least putting on makeup part at the latter half was really interesting! I love makeup but don't know how to put on, and also, I don't like to put on.  :P   can't stand having a layer of smthg over my face...

7 Sep
Met up wif my friends at KAP Mac a 8AM to have breakfast.. Yes I know the pre-trip briefing is at 10AM but it's hard getting out of bed!  >.<   haha, but had fun catching up with them~  :P   after the briefing, i went around to look for a suitable pants and skirt for office wear for my workshop. I found a perfect piece for a total $88! luckily my parents gave me some money for it before hand, else, i'll be broke, no negative!!  O_O
went to visit my friend at his country furniture store, I fell in love~ i love wooden furnitures and not those thin ones, these are the real deal! aaah~ i'm definitely seeing the other shop at the other location. was nice being able to see him again since we are in different courses after all. and he looked cool handling the customers and driving me back to the mrt, wow!  :D

8 Sep
The photoshoot for the grooming workshop was today! We all had our hair and makeup done by the hairstylists and makeup artists and I had the luxury of feeling like a VIP for a moment~  :P  the photo taking itself wasn't as scary as I thought and in fact, they turned out quite nice..
I had the most fun though, watching my male friends getting makeup done on them!  XD  and i still think that guys look the most cool in suits!  XD
afterwards was my cca practice and everyone had to take a moment to register who I was! ahahaha~ one of the reason i only put makeup on special occasions like a party.  :P   got some positive feedback so i'm more confident in myself now~  haha. but still, au natural is best!  :D

9 Sep
Met up with CM to go watch "contagion" at cineleisure. I felt a bit bad to let him treat me to the movies but I'm glad we had fun!  :D   though I wasn't able to be hyper coz a bit under the weather... next time we go out tgt again, I'll be sure to let him enjoy himself too~  :D
After the movie though, I thought 'it's so easy for an epidemic to occur'....just the simple act of washing your hands regularly helps, i won't forget that now!

tests in the middle of holidays!! :O

1 Sep
My friend R came over today and we had a blast! He seemed nervous about being in my house haha, though I dunno why. Playing tap tap revenge 4 to playing our violin, I had sooo much fun! and honestly, I thought it a bit cute how he keep peeking around the door frames to look where I've gone to when I leave the room. hahaha
went for strings practice late noon and it was so nice being able to see my friends even in the holidays. Something that has never happened before in my previous holidays...  =.=;;
2 Sep
Had to study for my japanese advancement test which is tmrw... But nothing is going inside my head!! not only am I still burnt out from semester exams(that killed a lot of brain cells), I'm too much in a holiday mood to effectively study..
3 Sep
Rushed to school and luckily, I passed my test!!!! Sure not the greatest score but still!!! Felt a bit sad that I won't be seeing some of my classmate-friends as they've decided to hold for a while before they start their Intermediate 3...  :(  I will miss you guys~
Rushed to school after that for strings practice but still ended up taking a leisurely time for lunch. And I personally feel that for koreans, if they don't have rice or noodle, they will never feel full... I had 2 bread and I still felt so hungry!!!  :O  practice was fun and we were having finger spasm by the time we finished trying to play at the fast tempo of the song!! hahaha~
Left early with R and went to west mal to pay the school malaysia study trip. I still love going to west mall~ maybe coz I've been going there for the like...past 7 years??  O_O;;;
went home, rested a while before leaving to have dinner with my family at the Chang Korean restaurtant at...Tanglin Village, Dempsey Road(i think!!). It was delicious and I actually asked for second helping of the jellyfish dish which normally I would avoid! Guess taste buds change as one grows older... one thing for sure though, I would never like bitter food!!  XD

enjoying my hols ttm

26 Aug
Watched final destination 5 after exams wif my friends, it was too gory and 'peekaboo' scary that I had my eyes covered most of the time.  =.=;;  and coz i kept screaming, my friends were all too amused by my reactions. uwaah~  >.<

27 Aug
went out wif SH,SA,CW to bugis to shop for crafting materials. silly us, we decided to sign up for art friend membership after most of our purchases were bought!  :P   at least I'm happy to have got the materials that i've been looking for~  :D
bought some miniatures too! it's really costly but I couldn't resist!!!!  XP

28 Aug
Went out with L, R, YL, ZA to go shopping for shorts at bugis!! XD my first pair of shorts, I'm trying to muster the courage to wear them soon~ And the shoes from everlast are soooo comfortable~ I loved the contrast between the black and neony blue-green threads.
Lunch at Shokudo(as recommended by ZA) was really delicious too! the best was the waffle ice cream we had for dessert~ Sharing meals, though, made the food much tastier~  XD  and L and I persuaded R to cut his hair. and OMG!!! he looks sooo much better even when he only had his hair trimmed and styled! O_O   the hair....makes the man..

29 Aug
K-Box!!!! first time going wif friend, I didn't know how cold it would get and wore a skirt which was very rare for me! Talk about bad luck..  :P  at least we all had fun singing! there was lots of chinese songs that I couldn't sing as most of the words I couldn't read. Never mind, practice makes perfect!!  >.<
Had dinner at west mall wif R and L and then took neoprints pearl white version!! It was really funny since R was tanned and it was so strange to see him so pale on the neoprint.  XD   L and I discussed though, and his appearance rank raised from 7 to 7.5 to 8 out of 10!!  haha, I'm certain that when he goes back to school, a lot of girls will be swooning!  >.<

30 Aug
Watched 'zoo keeper' today wif a classmate who tricked me into go to the date. the movie was fun but I was really annoyed as to how he kept trying to bring me back home when I insisted he just head back home. respecting a girl's privacy and knowing when to stop pushing is what all guys need to learn... and besides, I'm not comfortable with that kind of guys...  :(

holidays!!!

woohoo~~ EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! i am now free~~~  XD
finally have time for my crafts, violin and et cetras! Haha, kinda worried about how full my organizer looks though..  must rmbr rest is important.   :)

exams drive me crazy

exam period right now and my brain's fried right now... need SLEEP!!
and just recently, i got in touch with a senior-friend whom I haven't chat wif for...over a year! Shocking confession?! he said that it was my voice that made him like me...  O_O   do I really have such a different voice????

the inevitable

living in a rented house, I knew that the day would come when we would have to leave. But after having lived in the same house for 6 years, I felt really sad that we would have to move to another house... even if I am excited about getting a new room. mixed emotions.. I know that a home is not a physical place but more of a feeling, but still.... is it too much to ask? think bright, it's a new beginning!

cramming

It's study break now and I'm soooo stressed out trying to study for all 3 modules at the same time. Serves me right for studying late minute but I've always been that way so.... bad habits are hard to break!
Went to look for my counsellor-friend and with regard to my loneliness problem, she told me to learn to love myself first and then get a boyfriend! 'And how?' I asked. She said "advertise among your friends that're you're available...subtly"... I guess it's true in a sense but why do I feel that that sentence felt...funny-strange?   =.=;;

lazy days

been catchin up on sleeps, so nice to be able to sleep in and not have to wake up to the annoying beepings of my alarm clock.
felt so nice meeting F again after sooo long! we've all been busy wif our own lives these days, it makes me wonder if in the future, will our lives be still interwined, or will it go seperate ways forever..

not ndp, captain america!

celebrated G's bday by baking her rainbow cakes, making rainbow jellies and....smashing a tin of whipped cream on her face!! I'm so sorry to do that when you dressed so nice....but hey, we couldn't resist! Hoped you liked the surprise bday bash though??
Went to watch Captain America with D instead of watching the NDP. Having fun is all that matters....right??  XD

busy, fun and exciting weekends!!

06-08-2011
Went for my cca bbq at night, I had so much fun. Not only was I able to eat great food cooked by our very own instructors, I got to practice my signing a lot with my friends. I found that I can sign better if I don't speak while I sign. so much for hand-eye-ear coordination??
Being deaf and mute and choosing not to talk are two entirely different things, I can't pretend to be deaf/mute when I'm perfectly able to. But if I can go to their world with just a little bit more effort on my part, I will do so. Signing became a lot more meaningful to me, when I realized that there were HI people among our midst and we didn't even realize it. maybe it's my natural curiosity streak acting up again, but I want to understand how it is like to live in the world where there is little or no sound.

07-08-2011
Universal Studio Singapore. I was finally able to go to my first ever amusement park! My first ride being the blue battlestar galactica, I was so scared that I kept screaming and ended up grabbing my friend's hand tighter than she held mine. We were so lucky that the morning rain eased into a sunny afternoon and we were able to ride all the rides! From the wet waterworld that showed us a spectacular show to a relaxed madagascar merry-go-round to the thrilling ride in the dark of ancient egypt! I loved it all. Thanks so much to J for taking awesome pictures and to G, J and YY for putting up with me signing the whole day.
Had dinner with G's family in such a long time, M changed so much that I couldn't recognize him at all!! I'm so happy to be able to eat together again, my other family whom I love very much.  :D

abundance of free food and excitement!!

Celebrated Singapore's 46th Birthday at my school with my friends today! There were all kinds of pre-concert activites such as face painting, carcritures(is that how u spell it??), puzzle cubes, 'Don't forget the lyrics' radio-ings and game booths. There was free food, popcorns and ice creams too! It was so much fun watching our teachers dance to "choco latte", the fushion dances and my senior's violin performances such as bad romance!  XD
To top it all off, had my sign language cca closing ceremony and though I made a few mistakes, the performances was great! I love my cca no matter how tough it may get sometimes. I just wish I would be able to bond more with my peers. sigh~
I Love You Singapore~!!!!  XD

busy week

30 July 2011
I went for a 3.5km charity walk for the deaf and was glad that I went. I got to interact with the Hearing Impaired and realized how thankful I should be for being born healthy. It also strengthened me into continuing with my sign langauge classes. no regrets there~

1 August 2011
I had a rare free day and with nothing to do at home, I digged out a house miniature kit I had completed years back along with the furnitures, still in its packaging, which I had collected for fun. I just couldn't resist after finding out so many shops that sold miniatures on saturday! How I wish Singapore had more craft stores that sold miniature kits. sigh~  :(
Oh, and did I ever mentioned that I started playing maple story again?  :P

tickets!

As I was clearing my desk, I found this small envelope...filled with all the tickets that I managed to save! Concerts at the esplande, moive tickets, tickets to the zoo, tickets to my friends' performances. I think it's a nice memento to have.   :D

shopping~

went shopping with YY to buy heels for my formal wear attire, I bought a bag along with it! My wallet bled...but I feel happy with my purchases! I always love heels with straps, they're my favourites!!

I'm most comfortable with sling bags but time for a change~    :D

medicines are scary

I finally found out why I've been so sleepy this whole week!! It was all no thanks to the flu medicine... Skipped school to get another medicine from the doctor, I met my childhood friend whom I haven't seen in 6 years and he got so tall!!! It's kinda unfair how boys will get taller than girls later...though i don't wanna be 184cm either!!  @.@

a smashing good time

attending concerts has always been a favourite event for me but it was even more fun to go to your friends'!! sure it's not up to professional standards, but knowing firsthand that your friend has put in all their effort into making the concert succeed, watching the concert took on a more meaningful, personal feel. Encore!  :D

simple gifts

Most times, I feel that the most simplest of gifts are the most meaningful ones.  :)
Had fun folding and pumping all those little stars.  :D

fluffy things are so cuddable!

Watched Mr Popper's Penguin today with my BFF, the penguins were adorable~ I just can't resist cute stuffs.  :D   whether it be, people, animals, accesories etc.
We both fell asleep on the bus home, maybe we're too tired..

P.S.
my friends liked my cupcakes!! i'm sooo glad~ but gotta try harder and redeem myself with my speciality Chocolate Chip Cookies next time!  :)

why?

Someone once told me, that even if you're in a room full of people, you can still feel lonely. I do feel cheered up when I'm with my friends, with my family. But recently, i've become so sad. This isn't like me.
I feel so lonely that I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I want someone beside to share my laughter, to share my tears, someone to ease my loneliness, someone who can cheer me up and be there for me when I need a shoulder to lean on the most. I want someone to share my life with. Having these kinds of thought when you're just 18, maybe it's too early. But i want someone who will care for me, who will love me. I feel so lonely, forcing a smile on my face, trying to live my life. but this ache never fades, it only grows by the day. sometimes so powerful, i can't seem to breathe.. Why do i feel this way??

Baking Mania!

I thought i'd try baking a new recipe today....but i added a wrong ingredient and my cookies became cupcakes!!  O_O;;  at least it's still edible..
weather has been so hot lately that i find myself wanting to stay in class...just for the air con!  XD

when someone tells you that they are disappointed in you, u feel ashamed...but when you are the one saying it, it breaks your heart..

too much of a good thing

i'm not much of a blogger. maybe blame it on the fact that i'm awkward at this stuff, or i'm too lazy, or i'm just really busy(which is so true!!). I always think that being busy is good since that means you are making full use of ur time to live ur life differently.... but apparently, "too much of a good thing is bad" seems true when exhuastion now sets in. looking on the bright side? I managed to finish both my presentation and report all within one day!! I love my friends for helping me whenever i need it. pass on the love everybody!!  XD

Crazy Busy Days

camp in the first wk of term break, chalet in the 2nd. first wk of school and already my schedule is jam packed to the max! Thank goodness I played hard during the term break. Shopping, baking, hanging out with friends and trying new eateries! Guess the pastry was what made my week really happy? I love my sweets~
Guys been picking about my weight and I know better than to let it get to me but hey, say it enough times and even I will get hurt! Thank you to my friends for hearing my whinings even though u got problems of your own. And like Jodi says, "the only problem here is you people who make others' lives miserable".. let's be nice everybody!!

busy...yet not busy?

Finished strings camp and alrd practices for our upcoming performance. one thing for sure, this year's joint performance will definitely be grand as compared to last years!!  XD  looking forward to it~
unusually busy with outings this term break, but it's a nice kind of busy. i do wish we had more time to rest though. haha or more $$ to go watch movies!
after watching X-men, i went back home to watch wolverine. it's more fun when you actually get the storyline.

Ramen!!

Had my first ramen today after Jap class. Even though we ordered the half-portion serving size, it was still huge! But it was really tasty~ the sweet butter-yness from the additional toppings + tender meat + miso soup base and crunchy beansprouts = XDXDXD  couldn't ask for more. I cleared the bowl even though it left me feeling very full.

The shop can be found at basement 2 of Takashimaya. Shop name "BaiKohKen".

new laptop!!!

Thank you soooo much to my dad for getting me this, now I can finally ease my bag-load for school!! So cool that the screen and keyboard can be seperated and also easy to use for a tech-dunce such as me.  :D

Infatuation, Love and Lust

So just for fun, I attended this "Love faculty" talk at my school and around 3/4 were boys! Aaaand as expected, they got really hyper when it came to talking about physical love.  =.=;;  guess dog years really do count for humans too..

And to finish off, a quote I like from this talk. "To love somebody is not just a strong feeling - it is a decision, it is a judgement, it is a promise... ...if love was only a feeling, there would be no basis for the promise to love each other forever" - Eric Fromm, The Art of Loving

Guess that's where the marriage certificates come from?

Ready? Action!

Creating a blog right before ur CT is downright crazy. But hey, once CTs are over, I'll probably be too busy to upload anything right?

And to start off my first post with, food! well, drinks actually.  =P  I've taken a liking to Rockery's beverages lately. Hazelnut Milk Tea with Coconut jelly has a combination of sweet drink but + slighty sour jelly. Who knew coconut was sour...